The clock
strike 12 midnight and it was 22nd June 2008.

It all
started on the this very day......

It was Boyfie birthday, so
II decided to called Him and sang Him a birthday song... II kept

calling
Him until he decided to pick up the phone at 12.15. So II decided to be a bit

sarcastic

and
said,"Are you deaf or what?!" Then he reply,"My phone was in the living room and II'm

was in
room,II didn't hear it rang...."

So II
decided to repeat my questions again and that's where the whole commotions

started....

We hang up
on each other. Then II decided to call Him the next day to apologize but he

refused to
accept it. He said that II was the 1st girlfriend to ever treated Him like that
on

His

birthday.
II was hurt but II still keep asking for apology even many times been
rejected.

Ever since
then, we didn't contact each other for 3 days. During these 3 days, II suffered

emotionally and physically. Since 22nd of June, most of the night II can't get to sleep

because

II felt
pressure in my heart and brain. II kept thinking he's with another girl. He left
me for

someone
else. II don't eat proper meals. II kept crying even before II could go to
sleep. II

cried so
hard that II can hear voices in my head. Am II crazy??

So II kept
myself occupied by watching TV and online movies but once my eyes get tired,

eventually
II need to rest. Once II lay my body on my bed, my brain went into a whirlpool.
A

whirlpool which makes me suffocated and hardly can
breathe.

Things went back to normal on Thursday mawning but
evetually it didn't went well. II

caught

Him messaging and calling this girl which II don't like and
II didn't even know that my

Boyfie

had her number for a long time. When II asked Him for what
contact Her, he replied that he

let out His stress on Her. Then what my heart told me was
right. He said he met Her before,

he said last time, but II don't know whether II can trust His
words.

II know its Karma doing its job, what goes around comes
around. But why must it be now??

So II decided to msg Him what II felt a moment ago, but He
get everything wrong!! He

thought II'm finding fault with Him again!! Now he off His
phone, my mind is going crazy

again, II don't what to do. II'm tired of all these
crying.... II want to end it but II don't know

how.......

All II can say now is,"Help
Me.................."